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I'm back
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So, my last journal entry was apparently January 1st 2014. I got distracted with other things, mainly depression, but I think I'm going to start posting things here again. I'm still drawing of course! I actually have 2 commissions to do right now, and hopefully I'll be accepting more soon, I need every bit of money I can get. I'm going to Germany next year for a convention, and my job doesn't pay a lot, so I need to save for that (£220 for a Misha meet and greet, oh god).
Um so maybe I'll post journals and personal updates and stuff here again? I mainly post on tumblr so you can follow me there (angelcatsiel) if you have a tumblr and don't mind my really depressing personal posts, a lot of Supernatural and the occasional smutty fanfic.
As for a brief summary of the last 2 years, well... I got 2 tattoos, had sex with a boy for the first time and realised while it was happening that I was gay (which is pretty hilarious), met several famous people, had a whole conversation with one of them, been to hospital for self harming, and changed from a decent-looking human being to possibly the ugliest person in existence.
Anyway, I will post some art and try and stay relatively active!
Um so maybe I'll post journals and personal updates and stuff here again? I mainly post on tumblr so you can follow me there (angelcatsiel) if you have a tumblr and don't mind my really depressing personal posts, a lot of Supernatural and the occasional smutty fanfic.
As for a brief summary of the last 2 years, well... I got 2 tattoos, had sex with a boy for the first time and realised while it was happening that I was gay (which is pretty hilarious), met several famous people, had a whole conversation with one of them, been to hospital for self harming, and changed from a decent-looking human being to possibly the ugliest person in existence.
Anyway, I will post some art and try and stay relatively active!
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Happy New Year!
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Slightly late, I know. But happy new year to all of you! I started this year depressed and alone and about 1 minute after midnight, I broke my toe (although it was hilarious). It was extremely painful, but a very funny way to start the year.
2013 was probably the worst year of my life, which is saying a lot after 2012. But it can't get any worse. Maybe 2014 will be better. (I somehow doubt it, but I have to hope, right?)
Also, WHO SAW SHERLOCK? IT WAS AMAZING
Anyway, I dislocated my thumb again recently, so there hasn't been any art. But I'm just starting to get back into it now.
It is now 5am in the UK and my head hurts. And my toe. So yeah... *yawns and dies*
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I Hate College
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Yes, I know, I'm behind on replies AGAIN. Ugh. College is killing me, and I've been doing NaNo (National Novel Writing Month, if you haven't heard of it) so basically I have to write 50,000 words of my book by the end of November. Also, I have nearly 20 drawings to do by Christmas, and you know how long my drawings take me.
But anyway, I went to see Nickelback yesterday! It was absolutely amazing. I posted some photos on my tumblr:
icepaw99.tumblr.com/tagged/nickelback
Anyway, yes, I am failing at life right now because college and work and art and my book and basically I'm trying to juggle two jobs at once (stables and art commissions) as well as a full time college course and writing a novel, and all the while suffering from severe anxiety and depression, so I guess it's kind of no wonder I have no free time XD
Oh yeah, almost forgot! I'M GETTING A WACOM CINTIQ DRAWING TABLET NEXT YEAR. It's the Cintiq 13HD. I'll probably get it quite early in the year too, so expect my digital art to return!
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I'M NOT DEAD GUYS
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I'M SORRY I'VE BEEN GONE BUT I AM ALIVE (just)
Ok, so basically, I wasn't online much in August because it was my birthday, and we went on holiday, and loads of stuff. Then I went back to college, and then I was really ill, so I wasn't online in September either.
And since then, basically, everything's been happening at once. My depression got extremely bad again. During October I tried to kill myself twice. I don't think I've ever felt worse. I spent every evening before college crying because I was so scared, and it's been making me ill, and I've just felt horrible. I haven't been sleeping at night because I'm so scared about college. Just recently, I went 3 full days without sleeping at all.
But I'm getting a little better. I've got a paid job at my stables now, which is good, and that's given me a bit of a confidence boost. But I'm completely overloaded with college work, so I still won't be on here often. I'll try to come on here once a week, or whenever I upload a drawing. If you want to keep up with what I'm doing, I'm on Tumblr a lot (icepaw99) or you can just check my personal posts on there if you don't want to be spammed with Supernatural (icepaw99.tumblr.com/tagged/personal). I'm also icepaw99 on Twitter, too.
So how have you guys all been? 
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Digital Art!
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It's my birthday on the 23rd August, and I have asked for a new drawing tablet. SO MY DIGITAL ART WILL RETURN THIS MONTH 
Oh my gosh I'm so excited, I missed my drawing tablet so much.
In other news, my hand injury has been a bit better recently. I can draw a little bit at a time, so hopefully there'll be a new drawing soon. Sorry it's been so long. And it was my brother's birthday last week, and as a joint birthday present, we got pet rats! Magnet and Steel. They're so adorable and I'm in love
Go look at the photos of them on my tumblr 
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